hmmm... todays a lot of thoughts keep running through my mind
i think of 5 hims in my life that i will remember now

Still remember b4 i went to genting,
my frist him msg me...
talking about the past
ha ha
i know him at the age of 11,
we had two years of memories
its been a decade since i last saw him
now suddenly he msg me asking for my photos
so i told him to check it out in my blog
then suddenly he said he still have feeling for Me!
my thoughts.. can e feeling last in a person that long...
no doubt he leave a deep memories in me...
but i really do not know if love is still there...doubt so ba...
but will never forget him & wish to see him again...
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2nd him came in my life when i m 15.
one of my schoolmate Zhenyi gave my no. to him.
becoz of chatting with me his Gf left him...
i felt bad actually... but to me his my listener...
a great person to talk to...
we sometime went round in evening or nite
to see moon watch fireworks...feeding fish
A nice person but i do not feel love in him...
we r good buddy now...
Oops! its been a while since i met him...
although he just live a few blocks away..
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My third Him... stepped in whrn i m 19.
been with him for abt 2 years too...
although he do not have a strong build
but a Great person he is indeed.
he cares ,concern...abt me...
i m touch by the small things he did...
he in the end i left him...
coz we keep quarrel over the way we think
he is too emotional,
till sa point that i cant take it...
after that we become good friend...
& now he have Gf liao...
our distance tend to draw apart...
in his eyes there is only his gf now...
kinda sad... kinda sad...
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My forth Him. a person that i love the most for my 24 years .
Charming man he is...
i love him that much mayb coz he have what i dream of...
till now i know him for 5 years la ba...
but it only start in year 2004.
we start msg one another
follow by calls
we become close...to one another...
he lend me shoulder to cry on...
he hug me for comfort.
but things will never turn out well ...never
not possible ... be cause he dun love me...
is only for companionship.
he can be that cold n warm at times
he really dun love me ...
i decided not to put myself in deep trouble...
so i draw away from him...
he still did msg me but ...
he is now married with a son...
n i really gave him all my blessing
Although he torn me apart
but i still care...
although i cant do much...
but at least to gave my blessing...
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the last one on the list...
him is him...i dunno much
i thought of him after talking to a ger...
he is a nice guy...a cheerful one
felt that comfortable with him...
but not to the point of having butterfly ba...
his a person hard to step in to his world...
anyway i didnt intend to...
ppl will invite u in when they wan to...
no point forcing it through
he is hurt now... hope that time can heal...
As life goes on...