Monday, September 25, 2006
What Does Love Means To u?
Can love be like this song?
Can a person Love in no Return?
Saturday, September 23, 2006
ok...
just reached home...
what a day i had
tired,tired,tired...
ok had my supper...
just feel like blogging
stress... with sales...
sales r bad for my dept...
y? i dun understand...
Dear Lord, i felt very stress lately
Father i pray for strength lord,
i pray that lord i m blessed in ur hand.
i pray that my worries will be solve...
n i could have better sales n performance...
lord show me the correct path to head on..,
to lead me to light...
n the solution to solve my stress.
thank you lord,
in Jesus name i pray,
Amen
Friday, September 22, 2006
What a day i have today at work!
Stress!!!!
First OM is leaving, @nd ARM is going to 2SN...
now only left RM...Sigh
Alot of things pending ,
display plan, A1 space allocation,store visit on 28th
still have not done housekeeping..
JE mid night stocktake have to go help out
Store short of manpower...
espon showcase...
SO MANY THINGS!!!
AHA HA AHA HAtmr even worst... only i m working!
& there is tons of stock n i have to do OJT, sunday have to be DM
What a weekend!!! CrAZY!!!!!
Sick
Thursday, September 21, 2006
hmmm... todays a lot of thoughts keep running through my mind
i think of 5 hims in my life that i will remember now
Still remember b4 i went to genting,
my frist him msg me...
talking about the past
ha ha
i know him at the age of 11,
we had two years of memories
its been a decade since i last saw him
now suddenly he msg me asking for my photos
so i told him to check it out in my blog
then suddenly he said he still have feeling for Me!
my thoughts.. can e feeling last in a person that long...
no doubt he leave a deep memories in me...
but i really do not know if love is still there...doubt so ba...
but will never forget him & wish to see him again...
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2nd him came in my life when i m 15.
one of my schoolmate Zhenyi gave my no. to him.
becoz of chatting with me his Gf left him...
i felt bad actually... but to me his my listener...
a great person to talk to...
we sometime went round in evening or nite
to see moon watch fireworks...feeding fish
A nice person but i do not feel love in him...
we r good buddy now...
Oops! its been a while since i met him...
although he just live a few blocks away..
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My third Him... stepped in whrn i m 19.
been with him for abt 2 years too...
although he do not have a strong build
but a Great person he is indeed.
he cares ,concern...abt me...
i m touch by the small things he did...
he in the end i left him...
coz we keep quarrel over the way we think
he is too emotional,
till sa point that i cant take it...
after that we become good friend...
& now he have Gf liao...
our distance tend to draw apart...
in his eyes there is only his gf now...
kinda sad... kinda sad...
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My forth Him. a person that i love the most for my 24 years .
Charming man he is...
i love him that much mayb coz he have what i dream of...
till now i know him for 5 years la ba...
but it only start in year 2004.
we start msg one another
follow by calls
we become close...to one another...
he lend me shoulder to cry on...
he hug me for comfort.
but things will never turn out well ...never
not possible ... be cause he dun love me...
is only for companionship.
he can be that cold n warm at times
he really dun love me ...
i decided not to put myself in deep trouble...
so i draw away from him...
he still did msg me but ...
he is now married with a son...
n i really gave him all my blessing
Although he torn me apart
but i still care...
although i cant do much...
but at least to gave my blessing...
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the last one on the list...
him is him...i dunno much
i thought of him after talking to a ger...
he is a nice guy...a cheerful one
felt that comfortable with him...
but not to the point of having butterfly ba...
his a person hard to step in to his world...
anyway i didnt intend to...
ppl will invite u in when they wan to...
no point forcing it through
he is hurt now... hope that time can heal...
As life goes on...
Monday, September 18, 2006
Hey got the time to blog liao!
Hmmm... trip to genting...
hmmm... felt a bit restricted during the trip...
cant really do what i wanna do! becoz of my mom...
have to keep her company leh! sigh!
tot of going out in the middle of the night to feel the cold wind...n enjoy!
but just couldnt get to do that!
so didnt enjoy much except for the outdoor ride!
wow... in this lifetime at least i did something!
I TOOK THE Corkscrew RiDE! Ha Ha HA HA!
Very proud of myself!!!!
Hmmm... n another thing will be we Eat alot!!!
Everyday eat eat eat!!!
Ahhhhh!!! i gain 1.5kg after the trip!!!!
Hmm...my mom bought some mooncake Yummy!!!
Cal bought even More 10pcs of mooncake!!!!
oh ya Thanks Cal for the gifts he give to me duting the trip! Great!!!!
Even my mom wanna take away from me!
ANIZO... i got 4 of them... will at to my toys family oh... ya still got a beetle!
HA HA HA HA haahaha...
i Bought a t-shirt At RM19.00 With my birth year on it!
during the trip Thanks to Cal for entertain my mom!!!
Thank leh!
Start to like this friend more!!!
Funniest thing during the trip is to get to know that Cal actually being approach by
Guy asking "Mr, do u wan a lady!"
ha ha ... He just looks like he need one!!!
Aiya will talk about him some other time!
some other photos...
H ah Ha hA HA ha...
i m Back from my trip....
But start work again!!!!
i will blog again then have to out for work!!!!
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
hurt , sad , tired !Listen N enjoy...the music i prepare for u!************************************************A hundred days had made me older since the last time that I saw your pretty faceA thousand lights had made me colder and I don’t think I can look at this the sameBut all the miles had separateThey disappeared now when I’m dreaming of your faceI’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mindI think about you baby and I dream about you all the timeI’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreamsAnd tonight it’s only you and meThe miles just keep rolling as the people either way to say helloI hear this life is overrated but I hope it gets better as we goI’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mindI think about you baby and I dream about you all the timeI’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreamsAnd tonight girl it’s only you and meEverything I know, and anywhere I go it gets hard but it won’t take away my loveAnd when the last one falls, when it’s all said and doneit get hard but it won’t take away my loveI’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mindI think about you baby and I dream about you all the timeI’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreamsAnd tonight girl it’s only you and meI’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mindI think about you baby and I dream about you all the timeI’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreamsbut tonight girl it’s only you and me
Friday, September 08, 2006
Because Of You
I will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break
The way you did, you fell so hard
I’ve learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid
I lose my way
And it’s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that’s weakness in your eyes
I’m forced to fake
A smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole to start with
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
Because of you
Because of you I am afraid
Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don’t know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I’m ashamed of my life because it’s empty
Because of you I am afraid
Because of you
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Yesterday, i saw him again...after so many months...
the last time we met is begining of the year ba...
He seems to be very well off now...
His just that fat now! ha ha...
when i knew his coming... i m that excited...
i still feel that butterfly thing...
Do i still love him?
i do not know ... n of coz i do not Want to...
i saw him... but we did not talk at all...
all i can do is to peep at him...
when he left without a goodbye... i m kinda sad... somewhere inside ba...
Although he did msg me here n there...
but i do not wanna make it seems i still like him...
i pretend or mayb i dun feel anything le ba...
coz its not possible ...i could only love him within...
so why keep that hurt...
& its been years... Why i still cant step out of that plc...
mayb its coz there isnt any New plc to step in ba...
so where will he find me...
the rite one...
the only one...
Suck Man!Actually the trip is gonna be a relaxing one... But it end up to be So Damn stress!!! So bad luck la Cal thats what i can said...Have to Go round looking for replacement...Shimin said she will be going thailand so cant go...May said need to take care of baby...cant goJoelle said her sales check is round the corner cant take leave at the moment...(i can understand)than when i m feeling down.. Ding Dong! New msg rec...got a msg from Cal saying her friends can join... Ting! it brighten the day... Sleep well that nite...
But tue nite got a call from cal saying that she friend cant make it!haiz...Cal said he can go alone...but i juz dun wanna waste my trip , my leave that i fright for, n the money i put in although cal said he will refund. but its just not nice at all...Although i can go alone with cal ... but it doesnt seem nice to share a room with a guy ba... i parents tot of that...n i could have juz kept quiet n go... but i juz dun like to Lie!Last choice! my MOM!!!!but some how she will be bore to go with us!but no choice... but cal mind(i can understand).so now mom said she will go with me ... bus ticket she will take up mich plc... but we r now sourcing out to get a cheap room for the stay... hopeful we could get one! lord!than we will have different programmes up there...sad he have to be alone... sad for me to have to go along with mom which initial plan to be a relaxing trip with JUST Friends... Can understand the feel now!
Sunday, September 03, 2006
This is me!
Hi! its been a while since i last blog!
Finally off day can blog a bit!!!
had a busy week at work.
Coz of school holiday, month end etc...
Ah!!!! need to do alot of report analysis!
Ouch! Headache!!!!
oh this is my 2nd Blog! (sorry to calvin for my first blog)
heehee...
i edit myself!!
ok today is a sunday, wake up at 9.30am plus by my mom(as usual)today. Went for Breakfast with my family. We went back to our old hometown Jurong!! miss that plc so much! i Spent my childhood there! a lot of changes... but memories still remain! & its Sweet!!!!
Time passes very fast...I m already 24 this year!!Haz...
Friend Passes by n Go...
Long time no see For all my school mate!!!miss them all n the memories we all had.
Cheers!! for all ex school mate at Boon Lay Primary School & Hong Kah Secondary school... Miss u all!